Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I'll Lend You a Child

I'll Lend You A Child
author unknown

"I'll lend you for a little time a child of mine,"
He said. For you to love - while he lives
And mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call him back,
Take care or him for Me?

He'll bring his smiles to gladden you,
And should this stay be brief
You'll have his lovely memories
as solace for your grief.

I cannot promise he will stay,
Since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.

I've looked this world over
In search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd
Life's lanes, I have selected you.
Now will you give him all your love,
Nor count the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come to call to
Take him back again?"

I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,

The risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for him
Much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that come
And try to understand."
I must say that my faith has not always been strong, but losing Eli has taken it all away. I know there are many of you still praying for us and while I thank you, I am a little doubtful of it's power since it failed to save my little boy. I hope these feelings will go away soon, but I know I'm not the first or last person to be mad at God.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

It's only natural for you to be mad at God.God gave you a special child to love and care for. Because he new Eli needed special parents to love and take care of him . And he chose you and Jason. when you are down and out try to think about all the good times you had with Eli. And what a difference you are doing to help others in Eli's memmory he would be so proud of his mommy

Anonymous said...

I can only imagine how angry you are with Him. It is not right that Eli got taken away. He had such great parents and there are so many babies that live long healthy lives with bad parents. The only think I can think of is that He knew you two were strong enough to pull through and be the best you could be for Eli. He needed you to be there for him and to be his advocate. You are going a great job at that even after his passing. I am glad to have you as a friend. Niki

Anonymous said...

I can not even imagine how you are dealing with all of this or how you make thru a day, let alone a lifetime... yet I know others do it and with the LORD's help you will also... Remember when even Jesus'other was weeping when her son was dyeing on the cross... I can also not imagone how she could live and see it happen as it did... but I do know it is all in God's hands and I am one of those who are still praying for you.. and I also hope you will not always be mad at Him...
Much love & prayers
Ruby T