I keep having so many dreams lately where I am telling people over and over again that Eli is dead. I had a dream last week that I returned to my old job and everyone kept asking me how the baby was and I just replied "he's dead" over and over and over. It was horrible waking up from that one. A few days later, I had another dream that I was standing in the middle of some store screaming "my baby is dead".

Is my mind finally trying to process that he's truly gone? Do I need people to know that I had a baby, even if he's not here now? Do I just need that recognition that I am a grieving mom? I have no idea, but I do know that I sure hate those dreams. I can't even escape from the hurt in my sleep...