It is so hard to imagine that in a week, if all had went as it should, I would be the mom of a 1 year-old. It hurts to even think about that, just like it hurts that I never got to see him roll over, crawl, say a first word, (I could list a million things I think)... I'm thankful we did get beautiful smiles and giggles.

Love you my little Eli.