Today is a day of frustration for me. I've been trying to do a few things to help raise money for SMA research, but it is all getting very discouraging for me lately. I really want to start my own nonprofit so I have an actual name and organization to do my projects under. Without that, I feel like I'm useless to do very much. The cook book I've been working on is going to cost me a lot of money to print. They give organizations enough time to sell the books to pay for the printing costs; individuals must pay before they are printed. So, I could possibly ending up sending a few thousand dollars and have a room full of unsold cook books. I have no idea how many to get printed or how "fancy" to make them. I don't know how to talk people into putting in ads or how to design or submit the ads.
I wanted to do another fundraiser around Eli's birthday, but the 5K fun run we were looking into really needs to be done under an organization name. My friend Kim has a great alternate plan, but again, we will see how it goes.
I just feel so helpless to do anything and these projects sometimes make me feel that I'm at least doing SOMETHING. I know it is not much, but it is SOMETHING. I feel like I'm at a point that I can either spend my money for a lawyer to help with setting up a nonprofit and have none left over to do projects OR do the projects but keep encountering obstacles. Ugh.
That's my vent for the day. Sorry. Just a frustrating week for me.