Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Musings...

Well, I took the first step... I went to the teacher certification information session last night. I have the application and all the information now. I'm a little afraid to go back to school, but I want to be one of those people who loves their job. I think I would like to teach. I would want to teach K-4, nothing above that, so I have a few regular college classes I would need to go back and take (getting out of taking history wasn't such a good idea now...). I think I might take one class to see if I can do this. I need to find something fulfilling to do with my life and maybe this is finally it.

I had a little better day yesterday. The weekend and Monday were some of the worst I've had. It is hard for me to really accept that he's gone. No more laughs, no more smiles. I go in his room and everything is still there, ready for him to come back...but he's not. I keep wondering what he'd be doing now, if he would have learned more sounds, if he'd have a new favorite toy.

I've made some amazing friends through all of this, so that helps. The SMA community is larger than I'd like for it to be, but there are so many nice people involved in it. At times I want to run away from it and pretend I'm not a part of it, that it didn't happen to my son, but I stay. I stay and try to help out if I can. I have a few projects going on to try to raise money to help with the research. These little things are all I can do to fight against my son's killer. I thank all of my friends and family who are standing strong with me in this fight. If more and more of us spread awareness and help raise money, maybe we can beat this thing.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so proud of you for taking the first step to becoming a teacher! I think it will be a great fit for you!

Love
Brandi

Murphy's Law said...

2 thumbs up to you, Rita! I'm so proud of you. You are doing a great job taking care of YOU. I think you would make a lovely teacher. Keep going, my friend. I know it is hard to see, but you are moving forward (faster than anyone could have expected!) Keep that little guy in your heart - he surely would be so proud of you.

Anonymous said...

You are going to be an amazing teacher! Your students are going to be so lucky to have you :)

Emma

Dad and Mom said...

I know things will never be the same in life for you and Jason . But it looks like you are moving in the right direction for you're self. I've always been very proud of you and You're brother. Because of you're stand on life and the careing two children that we have raised. You 2 are something to be proud of and i always want you to remember that.

pam said...

Teaching is such an honorable profession. I applaud you for considering that as your career.

I have a picture I want to send you but can't find your email addy. I can't get the link on your blog to work. If you can email me I will send it to you. I think you will really like it.