We go pick up the crabs tomorrow. I guess we will take those to the children's hospital on Thursday. It won't make the day better, but at least it is doing something.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
No matter how many times I go to buy flowers, I'm never prepared for the sadness it brings. You would think after a year, your heart couldn't break any more than it already has...wrong. I can feel another piece of it crack every time I go and walk the aisles of flowers. How do you even pick flowers that are good enough for your child? I usually walk around hating everything, but not because they aren't pretty.... I just don't want to be shopping for flowers. I came home with a few bags full of them because if I don't get them, I have to look at 6 sad graves each time we visit Eli. It is always a wake-up call for me and helps me remember that my Jason has lost so much more than I have.