Thursday, May 14, 2009
It has been 5 months now since we lost our little guy. I feel like the last year is a total blur; I try to remember things and just draw a blank. That sometimes leads me to run to pictures, videos, the nursery in a panic to make sure he was really here, that he wasn't just a dream. There are no words in this world to describe the pain that we feel on a daily basis. My eyes hurt from crying some days. NOTHING offers relief. I can't imagine any greater torture than having to go on living with empty arms and a broken heart. Some days it seems like there is no point to life anymore, like we having nothing to look forward to, no reason to get out of bed.