Tuesday, July 13, 2010

I think I'm going into hiding for a while.   It seems like everyone I know has an infant or child AND/OR is pregnant.   I think there should be an alternate universe for everyone who struggles with infertility or shitty genes to live together away from all that.    It gets old to be happy for the rest of the world while you struggle to get out of bed yourself.   I am at point the point that I really just want to move away from here and start over.   I can have better control of my friends and surroundings at that point.   I know I can't expect to have all childless friends, but it would be nice to find a few of them, especially ones who love their pets and do paper crafts.  That's not asking for much, right?    Maybe some older lady with NO grandkids would fit my bill...

3 comments:

Murphy's Law said...

I love you, R.W.

Watching Peanut said...

Rita,
I just wanted to tell you that I still check your blog, a lot. I'm from the msn mommies board, and well, never have forgotten you, or Eli's story. I've tried to become a lot more active in helping increase awareness and funding for SMA research. I've emailed my congressmen and senator's from my district and have signed up to he a Helping Hand with Fight SMA. All because of you, and your story, and your journey with Eli. That being said, I have no idea what you are going through. But I just wanted to tell you that if it feels like you just want to get away from it all, from the day to day, from thinking about SMA and all its done to your life, its completely understandable. But please please know, that because of you, this is a cause that I've embraced as if it happened to one of my own children. I just wanted to tell you that. We are strangers IRL...but I love you, support you, pray for your family, think of you often and am doing everything I can to help fight this disease. Hang in there, doll.
ps- the mac and cheese looks great.

Scarlett's Hope said...

Rita, my daughter Scarlett has SMA type 1. We are praying for you! Hugs!