Two Months...

The 2nd and 14th of every month will be hard for me...probably for the rest of my life. It is always a day to reflect on the death of Eli and how things have changed since he left us. I still find things that we bought for him every week. I keep thinking I have put it all in his room, but then I start cleaning and find something else. Last week it was his medicine and bottle cleaner, this week it was the baby food making kit I had bought. I still cry when I walk by the baby department the stores. I hate getting emails to tell him how old he should be. I hate thinking about what could have been...

It is amazing how much he changed our lives in the short time he was here. It was much too short of a time though.